I sit here struggling to find any words to write. At the same time, my head is spinning with all kinds of thoughts.
I don’t know what to write, but I know I need to.
My heart has been so weighed down. Sometimes I feel like I can’t even breath. Life is just weighing on me so heavily and I can’t seem to get out from underneath it all.
I have choices to make. Choices I don’t want to make, realities I don’t want to face. And pain that I just don’t know how to begin to heal from.
I feel so alone, so scared of what the future does or doesn’t hold.
I have sought Godly advice, and I try so hard to listen to God’s voice. But I still feel so unsure and so confused. Hence, my indecisiveness. I honestly have no clue what to do. Or how to go about making that decision. I feel like no matter what I am always going to question myself.
But for the moment, I am giving myself permission to cry… lots and lots of tears.