I don’t even know…

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I sit here struggling to find any words to write.  At the same time, my head is spinning with all kinds of thoughts.

I don’t know what to write, but I know I need to.

My heart has been so weighed down.  Sometimes I feel like I can’t even breath.  Life is just weighing on me so heavily and I can’t seem to get out from underneath it all.

I have choices to make.  Choices I don’t want to make, realities I don’t want to face.  And pain that I just don’t know how to begin to heal from.

I feel so alone, so scared of what the future does or doesn’t hold.

I have sought Godly advice, and I try so hard to listen to God’s voice.  But I still feel so unsure and so confused.  Hence, my indecisiveness.  I honestly have no clue what to do.  Or how to go about making that decision.  I feel like no matter what I am always going to question myself.

But for the moment, I am giving myself permission to cry… lots and lots of tears.

 

 

4 Thoughts on I don’t even know…

  1. Crying with you, cuz your momma wants everything to be alright, right now.
    Knowing that you are not alone, because your Heavenly Father is right there with you, holding you so close. Each breath you take is a gift. Each tear you cry is gathered up. Each hair on your head has been counted. His thoughts of you are many more than my own. You are treasured. You are valued. You are priceless. You are loved. You are strong. You are amazing.

    1. Momma!
      I just saw this comment. Thank you so much for always being there for me and always encouraging me. I LOVE YOU SOO MUCH!

  2. Love you so much. Please know you are never alone. I am a phone call away. Praying for you in this hard time. I know God will lead you to the best decision.

    1. I am just now seeing this. SOMEONE needs to check her blog comments sometimes. Oops!
      Thank you so much Veronica! Love you!

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